Post by travis on May 3, 2011 21:26:10 GMT -5
travisdantemcallister
twenty-three. graduated. joyful.silly.tough.zacky vengeance.
twenty-three. graduated. joyful.silly.tough.zacky vengeance.
"well i'll start out, i guess, with i'm a pretty calm guy. i don't let people's bull shit bring me down, my buds say i'm happy twenty-four/seven so i guess that's a part of it. i'd rather not be upset, i like being happy and smiling. anyone that tries to ruin that or put you down on purpose just isn't worth your time. i am more of a live in the moment kind of guy, if i see something that looks fun i'll do it. i don't wanna be a forty year old man looking back on my life and just starting to do all the stuff that i wish i could've done. i don't want to have a mid life crisis, well i don't want to have anything to do it with because i did everything i've always wanted to do so no regrets.
i'm more of a people pleaser than anything. i can't stand it when someone is mad at me, it tears me up on the inside. but with that said, i'm not a full push over. if some dude decides to get in my face and try to be all tough i'll be happy to punch them in the gut. i just don't like to, but i don't tolerate bullies, never have never will. it's not like they stop after you graduate high school. i'll stand up for anyone being picked on or just straight up being mocked whether i know them or not. i used to be mocked as a child because i liked different music, wore black mostly, and hung out with the "freaks" but ya know what? i say fuck people who judge off that. i was never emo or depressed or any of that shit. i love my life, love who i am, and love all my friends to death. i guess i'm a loving guy? i dunno.
well when i got together with lisa, the longest relationship i've ever had started. before her i just sort of hopped from girl to girl, no i wasn't a womanizer and didn't sleep with every girl i possibly could. i actually like being in relationships, yeah i get a lot of shit about it but i love having just one girl and knowing she's yours and no one else's. being able to call her up and see how her day was and talk on the phone for hours. most girls would never think that of me because of how i look, sure it bothers me some but i get over it, i love my clothes, every single one of my tattoos, and killing my hair with how many times i dye it. by saying this i don't mean i'm not a flirt, i'll flirt with almost anyone, guy or girl. it's just how i am, no i'm not gay, but it's how i communicate with people.
i've had the same group of friends all throughout school and they're pretty much my brothers since i never really had siblings. i'd do anything for them, and any other friend i make. if they need a ride, i'll gladly drive them. if i'm called at six a.m. i'll drop anything, if i'm actually doing anything then, but if not i'll wake my ass up and get there as fast as possible. my friends are my life, without them i really don't know what i would do. along with them, music pretty much sums up my entire life. it's how i express myself, it's what i do to relax, it's how i just vent completely. without music i don't think i could even get through the day, it's what makes me so calm and happy, i think i'd be an angry guy without it.
since i never really had any siblings, ever since i was little i had a soft spot for children. i love baby sitting for people and love just holding babies. i still have no idea why i relate it to me not having siblings, i guess i always wanted to have a little brother or sister to look after or take care of. with my mom in her condition, though, i sure as hell hope she never has another kid, love her to death but it's not her thing. i really do want to be a father some day, i think i'd be great at it. be able to go out and teach them how to throw a baseball and to swing with just the right amount of force to send the baseball flying past the fence, have them come running in the house with their backpacks on their shoulders after school and sit down at the kitchen table while eating a piece of cake telling me in complete detail about their day...alright, i've seen too much tv and just hope that my life will ever be that good. it'd be the happiest day of my life, i know that much.
ever since jackson, one of my best friends and the drummer in our band, died i guess i just take life in a completely different way. when i told you earlier about my ex, lisa, there's a reason she's my ex, but it's just recent. she used to cheat on my with multiple people but i only knew of some. i loved her so much that i chose to ignore every bit of it because she said it was always me and those other guys were just mistakes, but when jackson died i decided that if that happened to me i didn't want to die now, not with how things are with lisa. that was the only problem i had wit the thought of me dying. i've done everything i've wanted; i'm in a band with a pretty large following and we've gotten our music out there to plenty of people, i have the best friends any guy could ask for, i've got a decent amount of money, and i like who i am. jackson taught me a lot of things in life, but he always just made me smile and life was always better with him just near. when he died i guess i felt it upon myself to take the spot of cheering everyone up, someone had to. i don't want my friends to be sad, and i know jackson wouldn't want them upset either. i haven't exactly broken down about jackson's death, not yet at least. it's there, every time i hear his name or we play a song i feel the loss in my chest, i just can't admit it to myself or everything will change..."
behind the mask
[/center]alias laykin
age nineteen
experience six to seven years
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