PETROVA, anastasia yuri

[ana]

anastasiayuripetrova
twenty. college sophomore. conservative.polite.caring.lindsay ellingson.

"I've lived in a strict household for my entire life, so because of this I haven't really gotten to live it up or have a blast. So, now I'm twenty and I really don't know what real fun is. My idea of fun growing up was weekly piano lessons and actually getting to pick the song. I was raised to be a fine young lady with the best of manners. I don't go a day without cleaning my entire room, complimenting my parents, saying 'excuse me' or 'pardon me' at least twenty times, and i even eat very little in front of people because it is not lady-like to eat like a pig. Without my parent's reputation, we'd be nothing. After we moved my father worked forever to get the same as he had in Russia, so I won't tarnish it by acting crude around others or even in private.

I've never really been drunk in my life, tipsy yes but never drunk. My parents, since I was sixteen, let me drink at the social events they've hosted so it's not like I've lacked on that aspect of my fun life. People say I'm boring and stuck up, and I agree with one out of two of those things. Yes, I'll agree that I can be a bore around most people. I go out on the town and shop, I go to social events, I love going to horse races. But when it comes to just having a relaxing day at the beach, or eating tons of sweets, or even playing games at the boardwalk and riding rides...gotta say never really tried. I do disagree with the snob label, though. I'd never treat someone different or look down on them for being less than me. I can't stand that my parents do that, I'll stand up for anyone...as much as I can at least.

I try to think of myself as open to new things, but I honestly am not. I've been stuck in the same routine for years and I'd be scared to change. Just going from Orchid Hills to college was scary enough for me. It terrifies me to imagine my life not being the same, I like it. It makes me feel like that one saying, if it isn't broken don't fix it. Or something like that. But I hate people not wanting to invite me out to hang out. I've been wanting to change in that aspect of my life...I just don't have anyone to really 'hang out with.'

When it comes to guys and my dating life, I really haven't been lacking in that. I've had many boyfriends, gone on too many dates to count, and have actually been engaged for about two months...but he was a cheating piece of slimy jackass...ah well off that topic right now. No, just because I'm mature and mannerly doesn't mean I'm a virgin. I believe that it is completely fine to have sex if you love the other person. And, yes, I have had my fair share in the love category. Then again I've had my heart broken a lot too. But lately I've pretty much given up on trying to find love and just trying to have fun. Love always just leads to hurt and sorrow, and those emotions aren't allowed in my family. I was raised tough, though. Never shed a tear, never complain, just sit back and take it...anything more is just weak and weak people don't make it in this world. I haven't been able to cry, really cry, in front of anyone since I was three. I always got whipped with my dad's belt if I did....

You see, weakness in my father's eyes has a wide range. Crying and being sad shows weakness and opens you up to, what my father calls, bullets that could dampen your future. Trusting too many people can be weak as well, to him. He always told me to never let anyone know how much you have or how good you are at something because then you can show them up and you'd have the advantage. Telling just one person everything about you is wrong. I've accepted this for my whole lie, but not being able to show all my emotions is wearing at me.
I'm getting to the point where I can't really take it, but I refuse to let it get t me. I'd be weak and pathetic if I did.

I was born to a political family in St. Petersburg, Russia. Of course our house was on the outskirts of the town but my parents practically lived there. They were pretty high up on the food chain, I guess you could say. Well, all I know is I've never gone wanting and my mother always told me to act my best because of the reputation I was forced to keep up. Don't get me wrong, I liked having people look at me with envy, but I never thought that I was so much better. I guess that is what kept the gap between my parents and I, I never put myself up on this high horse because of what I have.

When I was four we moved from Russia to Bluewater because my father said a change in scenery was good for the family. To be honest I never really knew the real reason, I was four for christ's sake. Only thing I cared about was getting a new house and making new friends. I was a pretty happy child, I guess. Going to school and being one of the only children here who already spoke two languages fluently made me a pretty interesting girl I guess. And, well, I was a pretty little girl. That's one thing I will admit to, I know I am pretty and just all around good looking. I just don't rub it in other's faces...all the time.

Living in America was different, their styles and slangs were pretty hard to get used to but since we moved when I was so young it was pretty easy. Now I barely have my accent, it's just enough to know I'm not from here on a daily basis. But I speak fluent Russian at home because my parents only speak it at home, so it is just a habit to go from talking in English right up until my foot passes over the door frame to the house and I instantly change to Russian.

All throughout high school I was practically trained by my parents to be the perfect child. Make excellent grades, be the model girl that every guy wanted but couldn't have because I was too good for them, as far as my parents said, and to never be rude to anyone. I had excellent manners and every adult loved it but the students thought it was a bit odd. Yes, I had friends but they were all just like me, had high society parents and was raised just how to act like a young lady.

After graduating high school, though, my parents bought me a pretty nice condo on the beach and I love it to death. I live there alone but I like to invite people over every now and then. In college I'm studying to be a doctor. I have yet to pick my focus but I just know I want to help people, most likely work at a hospital in L.A. and actually help people who really need it. I was accepted to Princeton and Harvard but I couldn't bare moving that far away from my parents, like I said, I am actually afraid of change. So I turned them down and stayed at Bluewater College.

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alias laykin
age nineteen
experience 6-7 yeras
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